07-29-2019, 08:51 PM
After being traded he sent a letter to the locker room.
Look, I know I messed up when I said something I was tired, and grumpy, was stressed and frustrated that night. It's not an excuse. 2 Month ago I was in a rough spot since when I left I made viable changes in my life. When I left I felt I was too toxic. I always had something to prove, I always had a chip on my shoulder, I was ultra competitive, but most of all I had personal stuff that was going on, and I was just holding on to it. So I got to work on my character. I made changes, some of the people I used to hang out with I didn't hang out with anymore. I graduated High School with a diploma, I got 3 jobs, and I started helping my Mama out with my brother because he had cancer. I became a family man that's what boosted my character.
I felt toxic in that LR, I knew I was, and I knew everyone else thought I was. So I left hoping I could fix myself in time for the big contract, and mending things. When Bluesfan55 brought it back up. I was very Irate, and angry. It wasn't really purely on him bringing it up. I was upset that, that was something that I did and I felt horrible. My frustrations were thrown out there.
I want to say right now I am more apologetic than I was before, but I have always been apologetic, and I have always wanted to come back into the locker room, and show that I have changed, but I wasn't ready yet. and I'm not sure if I am even ready yet now. But I have always had a love for that team. I am not only sorry I said those things, but I have wanted to mend them. Always have wanted to, but I couldn't think of going about it the right way. So I gave up my communication with the team completely except for the occasional check in on my players TPE.
I have always had the personality that I need everyone to like me, but I am going to forfeit that...but I am going to be the man I have been raised to be, and I am going to be the one who is appreciative of what I had. Thank You for giving me a spot in Edmonton. I was very ecstatic when I was drafted. You will always have a spot in here . Thank You to Keygan for believing I was good enough to be a SHL guy for the team.
I want to say goodbye and thanks for being their in assistance for my players needs. To trella, I know I said something that hurt you buddy and it hurt me to know that I said something that chipped away at my own character. All I can say is that I am sorry that is what happened out of my frustrations from a day. I accept I made a mistake....Bloos from one Blues fan to another I know I said something stupid, and i know you bringing it up. I vented my frustrations from my mistakes to you, and I am really sorry I did that. I am a perfectionist and one thing I do is take everything hard enough on myself that sometimes I have been depressed about it. But this is going to be a time that I face it straight man up. And I am sorry for what I have done from the bottom of my heart
To all of you thank you for the fun ride. And goodbye
"What I want everyone to know is from that day forth I vowed to build my character up from that day forward, and that is what I have done ever since. I vent frustrations every once in awhile, and it's mostly on myself. It's for the best that I left the Locker Room because I felt I was toxic, so I took a step back, took a long look in the mirror and worked on myself on becoming a better person."
To all of you thank you for the fun ride. And goodbye
Look, I know I messed up when I said something I was tired, and grumpy, was stressed and frustrated that night. It's not an excuse. 2 Month ago I was in a rough spot since when I left I made viable changes in my life. When I left I felt I was too toxic. I always had something to prove, I always had a chip on my shoulder, I was ultra competitive, but most of all I had personal stuff that was going on, and I was just holding on to it. So I got to work on my character. I made changes, some of the people I used to hang out with I didn't hang out with anymore. I graduated High School with a diploma, I got 3 jobs, and I started helping my Mama out with my brother because he had cancer. I became a family man that's what boosted my character.
I felt toxic in that LR, I knew I was, and I knew everyone else thought I was. So I left hoping I could fix myself in time for the big contract, and mending things. When Bluesfan55 brought it back up. I was very Irate, and angry. It wasn't really purely on him bringing it up. I was upset that, that was something that I did and I felt horrible. My frustrations were thrown out there.
I want to say right now I am more apologetic than I was before, but I have always been apologetic, and I have always wanted to come back into the locker room, and show that I have changed, but I wasn't ready yet. and I'm not sure if I am even ready yet now. But I have always had a love for that team. I am not only sorry I said those things, but I have wanted to mend them. Always have wanted to, but I couldn't think of going about it the right way. So I gave up my communication with the team completely except for the occasional check in on my players TPE.
I have always had the personality that I need everyone to like me, but I am going to forfeit that...but I am going to be the man I have been raised to be, and I am going to be the one who is appreciative of what I had. Thank You for giving me a spot in Edmonton. I was very ecstatic when I was drafted. You will always have a spot in here . Thank You to Keygan for believing I was good enough to be a SHL guy for the team.
I want to say goodbye and thanks for being their in assistance for my players needs. To trella, I know I said something that hurt you buddy and it hurt me to know that I said something that chipped away at my own character. All I can say is that I am sorry that is what happened out of my frustrations from a day. I accept I made a mistake....Bloos from one Blues fan to another I know I said something stupid, and i know you bringing it up. I vented my frustrations from my mistakes to you, and I am really sorry I did that. I am a perfectionist and one thing I do is take everything hard enough on myself that sometimes I have been depressed about it. But this is going to be a time that I face it straight man up. And I am sorry for what I have done from the bottom of my heart
To all of you thank you for the fun ride. And goodbye
"What I want everyone to know is from that day forth I vowed to build my character up from that day forward, and that is what I have done ever since. I vent frustrations every once in awhile, and it's mostly on myself. It's for the best that I left the Locker Room because I felt I was toxic, so I took a step back, took a long look in the mirror and worked on myself on becoming a better person."
To all of you thank you for the fun ride. And goodbye