Its been over five months and I decided I would make a player, but really should clarify a few things.

Was I a piece of shit? Yep.
Was I a douchebag? Yep.
Did I wrongfully call out people undeserving? Yep.
Did I use vile and vulgar language? Yep.
Does anyone know what was going on behind the scenes? Likely not.
Should anyone give me a chance, given my record here? Nope.

So, I may as well fill those in with what went down prior to enraged exit. It started a few years ago, as some of you may know, with my Moms health deteriorating, this caused a change with me that I really had not encountered prior, it affected every aspect of my life, lead to my marriage falling apart and a separation as of last August.

After that, I hung around here to get my mind off things and didn't really put much effort in, however with Nuck and Kez as the GMs, I had someone I knew and trusted to talk to, who knew the situation with me and that I may disappear at any time, unexpected.

After my separation, two weeks later, my 2nd year of college started, I couldn't keep up with it, while working my ass off full time to pay bills, and get my assignments done. I ended up having to drop out at the end of the 1st semester, that was heartbreaking as I had returned to school to try to adcance my career and make a better life for myself.

Then, shortly into the new year, my life went from bad to worse. I injured...something...at work. In the time since, I have been to countless physio sessions, doctors, MRIS, Ultrasounds, etc. It's either a bulging disc impinging on my L5/S1 Nerve Root, or something to do with neural tension in my knee, either way it hurts like hell to stand or walk on my right leg, which is suspected sciatica. I have developed mild scoliosis as well, from walking hunched and with a limp now for months.

My exit, which was approximately a month into this ordeal, was not something I am proud of. With Kez and Nuck both gone, I assumed that Wiki would be getting the GM job, and I figured with my history of helping out the Head GM, it would give me something to eat up my time, as I was (and still am) pretty much housebound. It has been no great secret that JayWhy and myself have never seen eye to eye, and for all that to come as a surprise, with the SHL being one of the few things I still found some pleasure in continuing, I was rather upset.

Does that condone my actions? Not a chance, but at least I think I spelled out the miserable state that I have been in. Being injured like this, going through a recent separation, and sorting out housing as well, life has been literal hell for the past seven months.

I have been to countless therapy and psychologist appointments, and have been diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, and PTSD (from watching my Mom die in front of me) and have sought help and medication to assist with it all.

I can't say I am better in any aspect, with being injured taking the greatest toll, being in continuous pain and discomfort, except when asleep or sitting in a recliner. The pain and depression got so bad, a month ago I was admitted twice to the ER for attempted suicide.

I am not proud to admit that, and I have come aways from that low point with a hope that somehow I can get back to being the man I once was, before every bit of my life fell to pieces.

I normally would not be this open, but I feel I owe you all an apology and an explanation.

Hey, I obviously wasn't here when you guys had your challenges.

But have to say that takes a lot of courage to be so open, and everyone deserves another chance.

I don't even remember what you did tbh. Glad to have you back

Welcome back

SIG LOADING


Apollo Seaborne #16 || D || Maine Timber
Position: D
Country: Canada
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SMJHL Career Statistics:
S79-S?? | GP: 77 | G: 06 | A: 29 | P: 35 | +/-: +10 | BS: 86 | H: 149
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SHL Career Statistics:
S?? | GP: 00 | G: 00 | A: 00 | P: 00 | +/-: 00 | S: 00 | H:00
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Career Playoff Statistics:
SHL | GP: 00 | G: 00 | A: 00 | P: 00 | +/-: 00 | S: 000
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Career IIHF Statistics:
CAN | GP: 00 | G: 00 | A: 00 | P:00 | +/-: 0 | S: 000
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Awards / Accomplishments:
Drafted 29th OA to Maine Timber (S80)
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LARGEST PUNISHMENT IN SHL HISTORY

I don't even remember what you did tbh. Glad to have you back

But I do know I missed you, and I hope things get better from here

i'll playwith anyone
playing with my teammates is part of the intangibles I bring to the table
i play with them a lot.
they didn't like it at first
but after a while, it just felt normal

4-0 and 0-4 aren't that different tbh

FIRE EGGY
HIRE ARTY

Glad to see you kinda back. Take it easy Mac

wat happened

9gag pretty lit tho

wat happened

TLDR


GM was changed to someone unexpected. I retired and unretired so my player would lose all TPE, called a lot of people cunts, and quit for 5.5 months.

Welcome back.

RIP Dangel. See you on the other side, brother

Just happy to have you back around. Don't sweat the small stuff. Let's all enjoy some fake hockey and talking to one another.